scratch tape

crap, i've done it again

my curiosity just got me into trouble
me and my friends at that
i should have had let it go
but no
i just have to scratch that mental itch
darn itch...
must not
should not
scratch

curiosity kills the cat
am no cat but am dead

but what can i do?
they're my friends
and i just want to...
want them not to...
but i think i made it worse

must not
should not
scratch

i miss F1

i can't play ... neither MU nor gunbound ... this freakin PC at work can't run gunbound for some weird reason ... (i am near crying actually) ... then, for some weird reason, i remembered the F1 races ... i love watching F1 way before, when i still have lots of time in my hands ... and when my fave team is second best ... trust me, that Michael Schumacher is a good driver.

anyway, i get to watch one race (i forgot where) on Star Sports ... and i was sooo ... WADDAFUDGE?!?! surprised that my fave driver, JP Montoya, isn't wearing blue and white anymore!

Juan Pablo THEN

instead he's wearing black and gray! (sizzling hot!)

Juan Pablo NOW

what is even more surprising is that Toyota is now above BMW-Williams on the constructors championship. waddaheck happened to BMW? i remembered liking BMW because they were the underdogs during the 2003 races, besides, BMW is one car maker that i like. And that JP Montoya is one hot driver (his wife's hot too!) i tell you.

and then, looking at the races now... WOW, big changes. from 9 constructors, it's now 10! and Michael Schumi getting oust by the young and handsome (haha handsome daw) Fernando Alonso!

that's like...huwaw! Kimi Raikkonen is still second best though. (demm he looks hot in this pic)

also, Renault is now number 1! guess ferrari got too dependent on their aging driver huh? teehee

hmm... see what happens when i don't get to play MU?? or any games for that matter...
demmit

PANIC BUTTON

huwaw... when it rains, it so does pours

here's the 411...

my guild is diminishing...
my feasib bites ass...
my sister hates me...
i miss playing my BK, ELF and MG, in that order...
i miss going out with my friends...
i miss playing Seth...

and now this...

haayy...
is it just me or is love really in the air?
and i just happen to be wearing a gas mask?
some say i'm too mataray.
others say i'm scaring guys away.
waddaheck

i say,
shouldn't i be taken for what i am?

crap...
maybe i'm too simple for this complicated stuff
i'll just stick to piloting my BK, ELF and MG.

misery loves company

yep... it's true.

but am not miserable per sé... just sad

pero sabi nga ni obi wan...

online friends come and go
but the friendship stays

sige nga, saang Starwars nya sinabi yan? hehe
the adik family ... you will be missed

MUsings

I was talking to a newfound in-game friend, and he ... well ... not surprised to find out that I’m a girl. (So not the usual reaction I get from people when they find out that I’m a girl) and he was like... ang dami nang girls na adik sa MU ... 1 ka na dun. And he asked my way is that? ... and it got me thinking ... why is MU becoming really popular with girl gamers? Well, here are my best bets, being a girl myself...(at least, THESE are MY reasons for being hooked into the game)

1. Graphics. -Yup. I liked it better than the other games. It’s more...sophisticated. I think this what appeals to the more "mature" gamers. You’d grow old but not grow up.

2. Play + chat. -C'mon, even guys say that this is one of the things that got them hooked into the game. Killing monsters while talking to people? And not just to people around you but also to people on the other servers! It couldn't get any better than that! It’s like ... YM while playing!

3. Camera. -Yes. The camera being fixed is great. No nauseating whirls of the camera ... especially if you are not a kid of counterstrike. No more confusion on which button controls what. Really comes in handy if you have a mouse wheel and you just love scrolling the freakin' thing.

4. Game format. -It is very easy to control! Just click on the monster...then watch your character beat the shiznit outta it! It is so simple. And you could totally customize the build of your character. An energy knight, a super strong elf ... it's your call. But then of course, I don't recommend those kinds of builds.

These… they are just what instantly shot up my head when I got asked the question… why are you so hooked up? … Oh yeah, I forgot one very important thing … I get hooked because of the people I cross paths with.

at ako'y nabuhay muli

... pagkat wala ako magawa
naisipang kong gumawa ng tula
ngunit utak ayaw gumana
tila walang sigla
yan ang mapapala
nang pag tunganga
mahirap pla sumulat
pag sa tulog ay salat
lalu na kung ala naman talagang isusulat!

bwahahaha

segway... bakit kya pag nalalaman ng mga tao sa lemuria na ako'y babae, laging tanong nila...maganda ka ba? HINDE. HINDE PO AKO MAGANDA. MUKA PO AKONG KAHOY NA BINILAD SA ARAW AT KINALIMUTAN NA NG PANAHON. kaso mashadong malalim. kaya sabi ko nlng muka akong lalake, ng tumahimik.

baket kailangang maging maganda? eh hindi naman nila malalaman kung totoo sabihin ko mang OO o HINDI, para namang kikitain ko sila noh?? hmm...siguro dapat may cam yung mobius, tapos yung muka nung player yung lumulutang dun sa character nya. hehe.. macho ko naman nun... lalo akong pagkakamalang tibo!

contrary to other people's belief...namely lester the rat...NDE PO AKO TIBO!! hindi po porke ako ay mahilig mag maong pants, mag tshirt, mangulit, magbabad sa arcades at sa comp shops, magtingin ng kotse, at kung anu ano pang nde ginagawa ng mga girlalu, ibig sabihin tibo na ko. TAPOS PAG NAKA PANG GIRL AKO HIHIRIT KYO NG...BAT BABAE KA NGAYON?? kundi nga naman makapatay ka ng nilalang...hmp.

my staple jeans and tshirt get up is just a tactic. pag lagi ako nakapang girl, edi nde na magugulat yung mga tao pag nag palda ako! or nag girly top ako! magiging mundane na ang girly get up, wala na excitement sa kung anong suot ni ako, dava? hehe besides, malalaman nila na kikay pla ako. nyaha ... wala na ang element of surprise! hihi

HUWAW!! wala talaga ako masulat!! nyaha... sige, gawa muna ako artik sa insider... baka maka bless. nyaha

--=HzL 101=--

1. girl ako
2. wish i could get my tummy and thigh chiseled.
3. i think a lot...as in A LOT.
4. i play games a lot. i put games into all aspects of my life.
5. life is a game meant to be played...the right way.
6. adik ako sa kotse, musika, gitara at video games...pati na rin sa lollipops at nerds.
7. mahilig ako magdesign ng tatoo (kahit fangit)...pero i'm scared of needles.
8. gusto ko maging isang ROCKSTAR!
9. gusto ko magkaroon ng plantation ng marijuana...at maging supplier nito sa legal nations. hehe
10. dati, gusto kong ipa-dreds ang hair ko...buti nakilala ko si yug. hihi
11. gusto ko na mag skirt lagi, if not for my killer thighs...killer whale.
12. gusto ko mag-costume...ng slutty nurse! bwahahahahahahaha
13. marunong ako mag drawing dati...i miss that.
14. kahit gaano ako ka-boyish, mahilig ako mag gant ... crochet ... at mag cross-stitch.
15. i tried plucking my eyebrows once...ouch!
16. gusto maging isang jeepney driver for one whole summer.
17. i like destroying things when i'm utterly mad.
18. ...pero i'd rather hurt myself than hurt someone else.
19. ...pero i normally hit people...playful jab lang naman e...pero they say malakas daw ako manghampas.
20. miss ko na ang mag-bilyar.
21. i hate guys na feelingero at feeling macho.
22. i hate girls na nagpapa-weak effect...papa-awa effect pla. WE ARE NOT THE WEAKER SEX! =P
23. i don't like guys na mas girl pa saken...IN ALL ASPECTS.
24. cheesecake is one of my krytonites. (ie, weakness ko po)
25. i'm not into flowery stuff...but i love dark blue roses.
26. i envy people who found what they're looking for.
27. mababaw kaligayahan ko.
28. i flirt intentionally...pero unintentional most of the time.
29. but i don't play people's feelings! ayoko ma-karma.
30. gusto ko maging DJ sa radyo nung bata ako...tas pilot ng fighter plane (parang si John Stockthon)...tas astronaut...tas nagdedesign ng kotse/mekaniko ng kotse...tas gitarista ng isang sikat/malupit na band...kahit manager nalang...all of which walang connection sa course ko.
31. sabi ng utol ko...bat di ka nalang nag Computer Engg?

sabi ko sa kanya...bat di ka nag Arki o Fine Arts? (kami'y biktima ng aming ina)
32. adik ako sa kulay BLUE. nde obvious noh? ^_^
33. pagwala ako magawa, i think about nuni and where to put my stat points.
34. mahilig ako mang-trip ng mga newbie sa MU.
35. rule ko sa MU: ang makulet...DEDZ. x-p
36. i have a huge batman poster sa dingding ng kwarto...to watch over me. hehe
37. spiderman, superman o batman? BATMAN!!! sya lang ang 100% macho. hehe
38. si SETH ang superfriend ko...andyan sya pag ako'y malungkot, masaya, walang magawa, maraming dapat gawin, in love, out of love...at di nya ako iniiwan kahit nde ko sya pinapansin paminsan.
39. marami ako nunal sa katawan...frustrated meztiza.
40. nagpapaputi ako using white henna. wahahahahaha...
41. my mom used to give me cosmetics...a lot. i hate it.
42. malakas kiliti ko. hihi
43. i could spend 10 hours straight in front of the PC.
44. i love my melon smell...courtesy of Penshoppe, Savannah.
45. i have a teddy bear inside my closet...wearing my tiarra
46. katabi ng teddy bear yung 1L ABSOLUT VODKA BOTTLE na trophy ko from kuya Gino!
47. gitara si SETH.

48. i am usually a victim of impulse buying.
49. mahilig ako magtry out ng clothes na pakikay sa stores.
50. nde makapaniwala mommy ko nung bumili ako ng skirt. (si jawy rin daw nde makapaniwala)
51. mahilig ako mang gago sa chatrooms pag walang magawa...i will tagalize in an international chatroom.
52. mahilig din ako maggawa ng model airplanes and aircraft carriers...kaso wala na ako lalagyan ng finished products.
53. i wear pink or yellow shirts when i go to rock concerts full of "punk daw sila" people... just to irritate them..POSER AKO!! hehe
54. takot ako ipis. especially flying ipis.
55. nakikipag wrestling ako sa utol ko.
56. i like watching gory films and psycho stuff. and movies with cool cars in them. and movies with waaay cool graphics. and comedies...the best!
57. muka akong teacher pag nag glasses ako...kaya kahit ayaw ng elders ko, nag contacts ako!
58. grade 4 ako natuto mag mura.

59. ako pinaka tahimik sa class nung grade 4 ako.
60. ako prez ng class ko nung 6th grade. ako din pasimuno ng pag skip ng class...we hate music class.
61. nde ako nag home econ nung junior high ko, i took up drafting with the boys. pro nung nag home econ ako nung senior year, malupit daw ako magluto!
62. 1st choice ko talaga Photography o Culinary Arts na course...ayaw nanay ko.
63. pinapagshift ako sa nursing ng mom ko nung 4th year ko...yoko nga.
64. i buy selecta double chuva na double dutch 'n chocolate... i leave the chocolate part untouched. 65. i haven't been inside a derma clinic nor had a facial...my brother however have a membership sa Flawless.
66. i go to arcades all by myself.
67. miss ko na si Hamster my smart hamster...may sunflower seeds parin ako for her/him/it.
68. gusto ko gumala sa manila zoo.
69. ginawa kong coloring book yung smut funny comic book na nakita ko sa baul ng tatay ko...sana nde nya hanapin.
70. i like kikay earrings. but i don't like wearing huge loop earrings.
71. nde ako madali magalit, pero pag nagalit ako...lumayas ka sa harap ko!
72. i love NY Bagels' Pesto Bagel and French Baker's Pesto-Garlic Sticks.

73. i could eat Goldilocks' Sans Rival every freakin day...but in two weeks intervals. hehe
74. FPJ tawag saken nung 6th grade.
75. Steve naman nung 8th grade.
76. muka akong driftwood sa grad pic ko. actually, muka akong driftwood sa LAHAT ng pix ko.
77. i wanna run a high class escort service company where my clientele is composed of celebrities and politicians. hehe.
78. i turned my sister into a MU adik!

79. i usually attend class just because of the attendance.
80. i stopped growing up when i hit 17...now i'm just growing old.
81. when i entered highschool, i was 5'4"...now i'm 5'4.5"...pro most people think i'm taller than that.
82. i like expressive eyes...they're the very first things i look at in a guy...ano kaya yung next? hehe
83. shaved heads - another kryptonite that'd kill me.

84. i learned to drive in 1 day...but i stopped driving the very next week, so now i'm a commuter. (which rocks at times...)
85. when i was in elem and highschool, i read our encyclopedias for fun.
86. i used to stay up all night reading THE GIANT BOOK OF FACTS.
87. now i stay up all night playing MU!
88. i like pushing myslef to the limit.
89. i have an autogrpahed *Nsync's No Strings Attached album.
90. adik ako sa *Nsync at sa Incubus.
91. i buy teenybopper magazines because of Vin Diesel, *Nsync, Paul Walker and Incubus.
92. i miss Anfernee Hardaway.
93. i used to buy NBA cards just because of Penny...nung nasa Magic pa sya with Shaq.
94. i love smelling good...kaya kahit bago matulog nagpapabango ako...pati na rin pag gising sa umaga.
95. i also put liberal amount of lip balm before i sleep and before i brush my teeth in the morning.
96. i like slapshock dahil kay lee nadela.
97. i want to have a killer for hire/ espionage agency...kami ng sister ko ang agents.
98. i love dancing!
99. i put powdered milk in almost anything i eat. lucky me beef, saging, picadillo, nilagang piggy...
100. i wish i could wear japanese fashion here in the streets of manila.

101. guys with ponytails 'n goatees (ie, clean looking, rockstar looking guys) - kryptonite.

...shop antics...

customer na tanga
...miss, bat ayaw gumalaw ng mouse? (sabay ginagalaw yung camera)**yan po epekto ng chat**
...miss, bat ayaw mabukas pinto nyo? (pushing the door. yung kamay nya nasa tapat ng sign na PULL)
...(kumakatok) bat ayaw bumukas? (may sign naman na PUSH sa labas. pano hinahatak yung door...)
...miss, what time kyo mag sasara? (may sign naman na WE ARE OPEN 24 HOURS)
...miss, pde pa print? (tapos nakatayo sa may printer) **hindi, hindi pde...talon ka muna...hehe**
...miss, may xerox kyo? (habang nakatayo sa tapat ng photocopy machine) **wla po kami xerox, sharp lang**
...miss, pde mag pa develop ng picture? (nakapost one click INTERNET) **magkaiba po ang COMPUTER SHOP at PHOTOSHOP**
...miss, pde magkipagkilala? **HINDE!**

what goes on?

inside the mind of ...
... san ko kaya lalagay stat points ko? ... hmm...
... kumag na un ah! sayang 2C ko ...
... hmm... san kaya ako mamaya ... LT o Dungeon ... teka, weekend pla ngayon
... mag DP ba ako o GD nlng? .. hmm ... kano kaya +7+12 nun ...
... nood ba ako concert sa friday? ... sayang sa exp ...
... cute kaya si GM *insert name here*? ...
... hafta lvl up...hafta lvl up...hafta lvl up...
... sino kya yung makulit na elf kagabi? ... takte...
... waa! wala na pla ako load! kelangan pabili na ke dadi...*aloud* classmate, pde pa text?

this one's dedicated to my guildmates and online friends

unrequited love

i was talking online to a friend the other day...natawa ako dun sa usapan namin...ang weird kasi...... unrequited love

yun yung term na lagi nya nisasabi to describe what, he thinks, i have. which kinda got me thinking. do i love because i know that the person i am giving my love to will love me back?...hmm...the Lord gave up His only Son even though He knew that His love would not be returned by the people He's trying to save. (tama ba?)

huwaw! seriousness! nde ko kinaya. on the lighter side, parang ganito yan e. pag may natural calamity na dumaan, madami ang volunteers sa pagtulong sa mga nasakuna. they help the victims kahit alam nilang nde sila masusuklian ng mga ito.
parang ganun din sa pagmamahal...hindi ka naman nagmamahal dahil alam mong maibabalik yung pagmamahal na yun ng taong minamahal mo. magmamahal ka dahil...walalang...mahal mo e. pero mas masaya nga lang kung maibabalik nya dva?

kaya kung ako sa inyo...MAGTARAY NLANG KAYO!
teehee...biro lang. =)