the vicious cycle

Thank You

2011-12-15T13:26:00.002+08:00

I just want to take time to thank you...

...for helping keep my sanity when i was about to lose it
...for giving me my smile back even just for a while
...for making me realize that i suck at this whole emotions game
...and making me realize how transparent i am

I just want to let you know that...
...whatever it is i promised not to tell, i shall keep
...my trust on you is still intact
...i'll miss talking to you

/bye

My Life's Rules

2011-11-27T15:32:00.004+08:00

Rules I should be following: (As inspired by Zombieland)

1) Never assume.

2) Like is just like. It's like saying you're cute like a puppy. I like you.

3) No matter how sweet a guy is to you, it just may mean that he's just sweet. Period.

4) Even if you talk every day, every waking moment.. It doesn't mean he like you LIKE you. It just may mean that he's having fun with your company.

5) Life is a game meant to be played. Play nicely.

6) There's a fine line between controlling what your feeling and denying what you are feeling. It's hard to diffirentiate.

7) Some are just curious. Others are bi-curious. Be careful who you trust.

8) Age is just a number. Growing up is optional.

9) When someone says, I'll tell you on time ... that time doesn't usually come around and you two will most probably not be speaking by that time.

10) You're a lucky bastard if you are given a second chance, so use it wisely.

11) Don't make yourself too available.

12) It's hard not to get hurt. Especially if you care. Therefore, try not to.

13) Timing is everything! Buy a good watch.

#hzlisms

2011-05-12T11:56:00.000+08:00

koleksyon ng mga banat na naiisip ko pag 1) wala ako magawa, 2) marami ako iniisip or 3) maligalig ang utak ko. :)

- bangus ka ba? ang tinik mo e!

- the shortest distance between 2 pts is a straight line. ba't kasi paligoy ligoy pa...

- Kulangot ba ko? Bat mo ko binibilog? =P

- target ka ba o malabo lang talaga mata ko? lagi kasi kita namimiss!

- manibela ba ko? bat mo ko iniistir? =P

- Hangin ka ba? Can't live without you eh!

- si Rapunzel ka ba? haba kasi ng hair mo eh! xP

- Camera ka ba? Pinapa-smile mo kasi ako e.

- Monster ka ba? Kinakabog puso ko pag nakikita kita eh!

- Eden ba name mo? ang cheesy mo kasi!

- Hindi ka naman nawawala ah. Bat hinahanap hanap kita?

- Hindi ka naman araw... Pero you brigthen up my day! :)

- Di ka nmn cholesterol. Bat nakabara ka sa puso ko? =P

- LSS ka ba? Di ka maalis sa utak ko e.

- Dugo ka ba? Lagi ka dumadaloy sa puso ko e!

- Kape ka ba? Ginising mo kasi ang natutulog kong mundo. Yebah!

- Kape ka! Kape! Ginising mo diwa ko.

- Rebisco ka ba? Kasi, ang sarap ng feeling mo!

- Pacemaker ka ba? Kasi pag nawala ka hindi na titibok ang aking puso.. -from Mr. Ponkan :)

- Insomia ba name mo? Di mo kc ako pinapatulog... Kaiisip syo ;)

- Di ka naman yosi... Pero ang hirap mo i-give up!

- Para kang bra. Thank you for the support!

- Empeetri ba nickname mo? Kasi, it's music to my ears e!

- Para kang bra. Kasi you lift me up. :)

- Dump truck ka ba?? Kasi... You take my breath away!

- Pamingwit ka ba? 'cause I am hooked on yah! Yebah!

- Para kang hyperacidity. I feel my heart burn when you're around.

- Para kang math problem. Hindi ko maintindihan. :/

- Ikaw ang wall, ako ang painting. I'm hooked on you.

- Para kang ipot sa windshield. Hulog ka ng langit! ;) sige na nga, ulan nlng. :)

- Para kang kapitbahay naming adik sa videoke. Di mo ko pinapatulog...kakaisip sa 'yo.

- Para kang hilaw na mangga. Kinikilig ako natitikman ka! Yoohoo!

- Para kang Cze.. Czech... Basta! Ang hirap mo ispelling-in! :-P

- Pano naman ako magmamahal... Hindi naman ako gas. =P

- Di ka naman artista, pero na-starstruck ako nung makita ka. Yebah!

- You are my whitening toothpaste. I smile brighter 'cause of you!

- Sprite ka ba? Kasi you quench my thirst.

- Sana DNA strand nlng kita. Para masabi kong akin ka lang. Booyah!

- Wish i'm senile. So I could totally forget you.

- Aorta ba middle name mo? Lagi ka kasi nakadikit sa puso ko! Yebah!

- Sili ka ba? Kasi pinagiinit mo katawan ko e! b00m!

- Poon ba ako? Haplos ka kc ng haplos e!

- Minsan gusto kitang patirin, para mahulog ka na sa 'kin. -from MaGay

- Isa kang S. Lagi ka kasing nasa puSo at iSipan ko.

- Is sleep your name? 'cause I can't get enough of you!

- Sana unan ka nlng. Para yakap kita sa pagtulog ko.

- @glocdash9 RT @kornchipgirl: master, me nakapagsabi na ba sa 'yo na para kang yelo? Baket? :) -kc sa panahong ito Ang benta mo! :) -Gloc9 sa twitter. I heart this guy! :)

- I can't say I love. However, I don't know a word more awesome than love, so I guess it'll do.

******madadagdagan pa ito.. :)

woohoo!!

2007-04-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

promise ko to kay hanna..

trivia TRIVIA trivia TRIVIA

2007-02-22T11:17:00.001+08:00

antagal ko maligo noh? hehe...

actually, hindi ko lang kinaya yung isusulat ko sana. the picture of the bear and what is written best describes what i feel that day. nakanamp english!

hemingways, wala ako sa sarili ngayon. haha! lagi naman! kaya malamang kung anu anong ranting lang masusulat ko... hindi dahil naprepressure akong magsulat ngunit dahil... wala lang. feel ko lang. bakit ba?!? x-P hihi.. actually, kelangan ko lang mag balanse, kasi nakasulat ako ng isang malungkot na tula... kanikanila lang. pagkalambing lambing... alam nyo ba yang kantang yan?!? hehe kung hindi ko kayo ka friendster... too bad, di nyo mababasa. sa friendster ko kasi sha na post at feeling ko hindi ko kayang i-post dito sa kadahilanang... umm.. copyrighted sha dun? hehe basta!

magulo ba yung post sa taas? oo aus lang yan. wag nalang intindihin. mahirap talaga ako intindihin. ultimo sarili ko hindi ko maintindihan. hihi

habang nagiisip ako kung ano bang panglibang sa utak ko ang maisulat.. may nabasa akong forwarded email na mga trivial stuff... share ko yung iba dito:

>The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. wwoooowww... hehe *evil grin*
>TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard. marami talagang taong walang magawa sa buhay noh?
>Women blink nearly twice as much as men. see. pati pag blink binibilang. hmm.. either isang babaeng bored sa ka-date nya yung nag bilang o kaya lalakeng me kasamang makwentong girl. hmm.. teka, conscious ba tyo sa pag blink natin?
>It is impossible to lick your elbow. ay sis, hindi ko ma-lick ang elbow ko. pramis.
>People say "Bless you" when you sneeze because when you sneeze, your heart stops for a millisecond. wow. para kang namatay... for a millisecond. deadly pala ang pag HACHING!
>If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die. nakanamputch... see?!? deadly nga! haha... i could see it in a tombstone now (pwede ring sakin) one sneeze took my breathe away.. nyahaha
>A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out. haha.. sabagay. walang bwayang nangbebelat sa manila zoo... teka.. me bwaya ba dun??
>A snail can sleep for three years. nyahaha!! alam ko na kung saan ako pinaglihi!!! nyahahaha. FYI: kaya ko matulog ng 24-25hrs straight given the right circumstances
>American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first-class. i bet IE ang nag document nito... *yawn* FYI ulit: IE ako.
>Elephants are the only animals that can't jump. putcha! isipin mo nlang me elepanteng tumatalon pag pasok mo ng zoo! kala mo lumilindol! masama nangang matapakan ka ng elepante, matalunan ka pa.. naknang...
>Stewardesses is the longest word typed with only the left hand. haha.. dami talagang taong alang magawa noh? na iimagine ko... me isang taong type ng type ng kung anu ano using only one row sa keyboard, or just one hand, or whatever... i bet.. kano ang nakatuklas ng triviang ito. haha
>The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated. nyahahaha... lashengero pala mga langgam! hahaha... ako kaya sang side bumabagsak pag lasing... hmm... nyahahahaha
>Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times. waaaaaa!! pano pa kaya pag earphones!!! kaya pala ako nag luluga 2x faster than sa utol kong walang mp3 player. nyahahahaha.. yuck!! hehe... in other words.. GROwSS!
>Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different. nyahahaha!! pwedeng pang imbestiga kung sinong nagbigay ng hickey sa tropa/jowa/asawa mo! nyahahaha... teka... me dila bang kasama yun? *di ko alam pramis.*
>****And finally 99% of people who read this will try to lick their elbow!!!! NYAHAHAHAHA!!! GUILTY!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ayan... ayus na ulit ako. hihi

TBC

2007-02-19T07:18:00.000+08:00

to be continued.. maliligo muna ako..

to BF or not to BF... is that your final answer?!?

2007-02-17T09:31:00.000+08:00

booset.

habang nakaupo ako sa pc at nag checheck ng friendster chenes ko.. ang mudra ko walang inatupag kundi kwentuhan ako ng tungkol sa bunso namin at sa boypren nito. muntik ko nang sabihin ... mommy, care ko?!? carebears. kaso baka batuhin ako ng stapler. sabi ng mommy ko, care daw nya kung muy shonget ang mapipili namin. care daw nya kung poorlita. basta daw mabait, may pinag-aralan, may takot sa Diyos, masipag, matulungin, may pamamalasakit, makapamilya, ... oo. marami pang kasunod. di mo malaman tuloy kung seryoso sha sa sinabi nyang care nya kung sino mapusuan namin.

bakit nag dadrama my mother dear?? kasi, my sister dearest.. bwakanang.. kunyari ganyan kami kasibilisi.. umm civilized.. just introduced to us her boyfriend when she graduated from college last year. at may ilang months na pla sila. kaya mega hurt ang momsie ko. wenk.. hindi po talaga momsie ang tawag ko sa kanya. at ayaw nya ke boylet ni sis. bakit? maraming kadahilanan. kasing haba nung listahan nya na hindi naman talaga rules and guidelines for the future sweetheart honeybunch sugarpie naming mag uutol... sa nanay ko lang yun. at... nakipag break si lalakwe ke bunsoy, ngunit ito'y bumabalik at tinanggap naman ni sister dear. .. at yung ang ikinagagalit... i mean ikinasasama ng loob ni mudra. hindi ko naman tsinismis utol ko noh??! hehe

hemingways... sabi nya... ngayong nakapagtapos na kyo, ayos na sakin na makipag-relasyon kayo. basta ba pupunta dito sa bahay para manligaw. para nakikilala namin. at para ma okray nya sa likod namin pag alis. hindi naman masamang ligawan e. natuturuan naman ang puso... basta pipiliin nyo yung... at this point hindi ko na talaga naiintindihan yung sinasabi nya kasi na gugutom na ako plus inaantok.

tas, napaisip ako. hmm... pano kaya kung nalaman ng ina ko na nagka"BF" ako for about a month? at hindi pa ako grad nun.. last year lang naman e. tsaka... hindi naman kami official. tanong mo sa kanya. pano kung nalaman nya na hindi parin grad yung taong minahal ko? at mejo me height difference kami? *evil smile* at pano kung nalaman nya na sa computer shop nila ako natutulog pag umaalis ako ng bahay esmyuski, kasama pa namin ang ibang tropa sa shop. dun lahat kami natutulog! blee.. pero sana nde nalang noh?? nyahahaha **evil laugh** ... hmm.. eto matindi... pano kung sabihin kong buntis ako tas ala akong kilala nilang BF?!? hindi kaya fertilizer na ako ngayon??? hmmm.. interesting... hihi

pero eto lang masasabi ko... wala talaga tayong magagawa kung mahal nung tao yung isa. hindi natin hawak ang puso nila. kasi, mamatay sila kung hawak natin puso nila. hehe. yan ang kaloob satin ng Diyos na kung tawagin ay FREE WILL. yes. sabi nga sa Bruce Almighty, bigay ng Diyos ang free will kaya pati Siya hindi kayang idikta sa tao na mahalin Siya. malabo? basahin nyo nlang yung quote:

Bruce:How do you make somebody love you without affecting free will?
God: [scoffs] Welcome to my world, son. If you come up with an answer to that one, let me know.

aus dba? hindi ko rin masisi ang utol ko kung tatanggapin niya ulit si boypren matapos nitong makipag break sa kanya at magkaroon ng ibang gerlpren. kasi nga... it's her free will. yun gusto nya e. sabagay... to love truelly, you must forgive and forget. dava?

hmm.. ako kaya... haha. ika nga ng mega friend kong si aaron .. ASA! .. hehe ..

p balentong .. HAPPY?!? dapak

2007-02-14T09:34:00.000+08:00

hehe.. valentine's day ngayon.. SO?!? carebears. hehe >>bitter ang lola nyo, wak ka magulo<<
ang sumusunod ay hango sa panghihingi ko kanina kay georgie ng quotes... oo, tamad ako mag search ng quotes e... e sha magaling, edi mang hingi nalang. hehe. thanks georgie!!

...when It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
...when you remember how hard it is to change yourself, you begin to understand what little chance we have of changing others.
...it hurts to see you walk away. For admit it or not, you were an important part of my life and the time we shared will forever be a part of me. So even though I realize that it was never meant to be, still, it hurts.
...I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain. I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end. I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend, but I always thought that I’d see you again.
...I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
...when you're INLOVE, never put yourself in a situation where you're not sure where you stand on that person's life. Never ASSUME , never EXPECT, so that if they choose to DROP you, you'll have the STRENGTH to MOVE on.......

...yung last e bull's eye! bwakanang... hehe...
valentine's ... why do we have to celebrate it? when we can celebrate our love for each other all year long?? (YUN E KUNG TATAGAL KYO NG YEAR.. KUNG TUMAGAL KYO. CONGRATS! ... hmf) hehe >>sabing bitter ang lola nyo eh. kasing tamis ng ampalaya!<<

oh.my.ga..

2007-02-05T09:02:00.000+08:00

HAAAAYYYYYYY........

dumadami na nga yata ang bading sa mundo
minsan ka na nga lang mag ka kras e
sa bading pa
may golay... sira ang gaydar ko
naapektuhan yata ng sipon
dapat nga siguro panahon na!
para mag clusivol.
amp!
o kaya stresstabs...
hehe
pero dapat tingnan ang glass half full...
challenge iyon! pwede ko sha pabalikwasin!
bwahahahahahaha
asa naman ako noh!
e yung tipo pa nya e yung malaking sardinas na bumisita here
actually, sabi ko nga kay mami may... hindi po sardinas yun... TUNA! ANG LAKI E! nyahahaha!!!!
...hayz
susulat sana ako ng isang PRETENSE, nainggit ako kay hanna e.
kaso... next time nalang. na dismaya ako ke bading kong kras e. hehe
ang sirkol op layp... may maganda na kras ni gwapo, pero hindi sha pinapansin nito. si gwapo, kras ni wafu. si wafu kras nung isang bebot. at si bebot, kras ni maganda. ang saya nila dba?
wicked.
sabi nga ni jelle... oh.my.god. .. hehe.. di ba adelle? nyaha

WANDA-ish edition

2007-02-02T09:44:00.000+08:00

nyahahahahaha... nakatunganga nanaman ako sa tapat ng pc. trying to think straight. (kunyari i have the powers to do that. hehe)
..pero wala..
wala pumapasok sa utakeshi ko. (nakupo.. epekto yan nang kakabasa ko sa blog ni WANDA baklita! hehe)
hemingways (hihi), kung may mas matino kang gagawin.. GO! kung wala, read ka nlng ng kung anumang chenes ang maisulat ko. haha
actually, tumayo ako at nag tooth-brush (kung alam mo ang kanta ng GRIN DEPT na Buy One, Take Two... winner ka! kung nde.. sorinez) ... habang nag totooth-brush, naalala ko kung closetta sa work na sabi ng mga friendly friends kong mukang naoobses na sakin.
pakshet... pati ba closetta e naakit ko na?!? homagash! GANUN KAHABA HAIR KO SIET!
argh talaga. rule numero uno ko pag dating sa guys... AYOKO NG MAS GIRL SAKIN! (huh?!? anu daw?!?) opo. read the profile... titled AKITCH. is on the top right portion of the screen... haluuu....
pano ko nasabing ayoko ng mas girl sakin?
1. marunong ako mag basketball, sha nde. peborit nya volleyball!
2. marunong ako mag gitara, sha nde
3. marunong ako mag bilyar, sha nde
4. mahilig ako mag-arcade, sha nde
5. bebentahan ka nya ng make-up, tsong, di ako nag me make-up! lip blam nga nalilimutan ko pa mag lagay!
6. sha malamya, ako nde
7. sha ma jinarte, ako.. slyt. hehe. bat ba?!? e josha akitch. =P
8. metikuloso sa katawan, ako nde (haha! barubal ako e. bat ba! ble)
9. beauty regimen nya: facial scrub, toner, moisturizer ... beauty regimen ko: facial scrub. minsan sabon lang.
10. kape nya: starbucks, seattle's best, gloria jeans, etc. kape ko: nescafe na me milo. na minsan e nasa pinaglayan ng nissin cup noodles. san ka.
11. marunong sha mag color coordinate ng japorms nya. ako color blind.
12. lagi sha mukang presentable (keyword: MUKA) ako mukang pupunta sa kanto para bumili ng toyo.
13. kikay kit nya: (yes, meron sha) tuuuttt-bras n tuuuuuttt peyst, alcohol, suklay, mirror, mouthwash, facial scrub, towellete. (meron ring cologne, powder at lip balm) ako... may cologne, lip balm, suklay at mirror... pero nakakalat sa bag ko... na back pack.
14. sha: sinisinghalan ng tambay sa kanto. ako: pinipituhan. NYAHAHAHA!!! NAG ILUSYON NA!
chenes. tama na ang pag iilusyon! sumasama na ang lagay ng ulcerific ko. laterz mga fifel.
..ay! pano ko naamoy kung closetta?!? ahem.. ME GAYDAR DIN AKITCH! bwahahahahahahah
..and! according to wanda ilusyunada, straight guys have gaydar too! at since 85-90% ng friendly friends ko ay straight guys... at hihirit sila ng.. tsong, sardinas! ahahahaha! affirmative na nawala ang susi palabas ng closet! haha!

malamang ika'y nag tataka kung ako nga ba'y isang girl na bading, tomboy, lesbiyana, o girl maria clara... haha... pareho tyo. ^_^

NEW TOY!

2007-01-28T10:04:00.000+08:00

WII!! i have a new toy!!! i had the Sansa C240 before (that would be the player at the other article), but then i had it replaced because of a broken jack... and guess what the replacement was... AN E250(2gb of fun!!)!!! .. the best thing about it all is.. IT'S FREE! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!! .. SANDISK IS THE BEST!

bahay bahayan

2007-01-25T07:28:00.000+08:00

sa friendster blog ko ito originally pinost, sira kasi tong blog ko dito. hehe.. pero yung ang kulit ver1.0 dito ko nilikha... yung ver1.1 e sa bulletin post ata ng friendster. hihi

ang bahay... ver 1.2
ang buhay ...
magulo ...

lalo na pag ang bahay na gusto mong bilhin ...
meron nang may ari ...
hindi ka na pwedeng pumasok at tumira sa loob ...
hindi mo na pwedeng hawakan ang susi ng pinto ...
hanggang labas ka nalang ...
hanggang tingin ka nalang ...
sayang ...
sayang at hindi ako nagawi sa parte na iyon ng
mundo ...
at nakita agad ang bahay na iyon ...
sayang at may nag mamay ari na ng bahay ...
na kinahulugan ng puso mo ...
di bale ...
lakad lakad nalang muna uli ...
baka meron pang iba dyan ...
sanay naman akong walang tirahan eh ...

pero paminsa'y pinapatuloy tyo sa bahay ...
para tumingin, magmasid ...
sumilong panandalian ...
para lang matakam ka lalo ...
at pag naisipan na ng may-ari na tapos na ...
paaalisin ka na ...
kun sabagay, buti binigyan ka na pagkakataon ...
malasap ang pakiramdam ...
na dulot ng isang bahay ...

advertising?? haha

2007-01-23T11:48:00.000+08:00

ever since i became a "tech" person (parang yung previous post kong shopantics), stupidity never fails to entertain me.

... i cannot view my pictures on my computer! is the camera connected to the computer? the camera's on top of the computer! is the cable securely plugged in to the usb port? there's a cable? ... ayyyyyy...
... let's press the scroll button to get to settings. it's not doing anything. well, what do you see on the display? it says music. ok, let's press the upper edge of the of the outer black square (the scroll key). now what do you see? it just stayed there. let's turn off the player. is the blue light off? yes. what do you see on the display? it still says music. did you take the sticker off the display? there's a sticker?!? how do you take that off?? .. awtz
... how do to attach the lanyard to the player? on top of the player there are 2 square holes between the headphone jack and the mic...can you see it? do you unscrew the silver thingy and screw it to the hole? ..the cust just asked me if she has to screw in the lanyard to the headphone jack..grrr
... let's go to my computer. do you see your sansa listed there? umm... no. wait. do i have to connect the player to the computer? ...hindi po!!! me bluetooth yan e!!!.. pero meron na pong wi-fi ang bagong mp3 player ng SanDisk! check out the Sansa Connect

... let's right-click my computer. how do i do that? i don't have an access to your computer! .. tama nga naman..

... i bought a micro sd card for my phone, i have 2 chips here, but only the smaller chip fits my phone, what do i do with the bigger chip? ...umm, dip it? hehe.. he's talking about the card adapter

... let's plug in your phone to the computer to see if we could access the card from there. umm, ok. wait, do i need a cable for that? .. probably not... argh

... how do i take the card out of the box?!? ...waaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

*madami pa kaso mahirap i-explain e.. hehe..

Exhibit 1. the mp3 player

Exhibit 2. the lanyard ..............Exhibit 3. the box

it's been...

2007-01-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

...5 months
yep, count 'em
one
two
three
four
five
... five months.
it's weird...
my eyes should be dry
by now
the grip shouldn't be too tight
by now
i should have found someone
by now
but still...
tears flow
knuckles whitens
heart missing ...
but just can't do anything about it
no matter how much you miss someone
everything just doesn't matter now
not any more
...when?
soon, i hope.

VOICES

2006-11-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

You're arguing again
Lies not forgotten
Spewing sounds of hatred
Abomination created

You're screaming again
Breaking my head to ten
Filling me with unearthly sounds
Howling like hell's hounds

I think I'm better wasted
Shut the voices in my head

You're nagging again
Trying to take the reign
I'd better keep it cool not blow it
Fuming mad, not show it

You're complaining again
Should have known better then
Nothing seems to satisfy you
Nothing that I say or do

I think I'm better wasted
Shut the voices in my head

You're boring me again
Time and time again
Pointless words, droning voice
Crying babies make better noise

You're ranting again
Stuff can't keep within
Spinning like a broken record
You live a life of a board

I think I'm better wasted
Shut the voices in my head
Yes, I'm better wasted
Shut the voices in my head

THE WORLD HATES ME

2006-06-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

yup yup... it really does...
haven't recupriated (tama ba?) from the thing
e nasira ko pa blog ko...
at tinatamad pa akong ayusin sya.
haynaku. wala na bang katapusan ang ulan??
haaayyyy... bat ang tagal magpakita ng araw??
kelan ko kaya makikitang muli ang aking ngiti?
baka naman may alam kang tindahan nito.
sana mura lang. nakakamiss na ring ngumiti.
haayyy...
puro bugtong hininga.
sabi ng isa kong kaibigan:
isipin mo, it's his loss!
tama nga naman. it's his loss talaga.
pero bat ganun? bakit kahit paulit ulit kong sabihin yun...
e parang ako parin yung nalugi?
namputz. wala ba nabibilhan ng memory altering device?
para naman yung buwan ay gawin nalang araw
para parang hindi ganun katagal yung sakit ko
para hindi mahirap makalimot
at para madali na mag move on.
HHAAAYYYYY

director's cut

2006-06-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

yey! didn't cry this morning when i woke up! good fer me! tapos, heard this song ... again ... demmit ... demmit ... demmit ... tama nga sabi ni les ... masakit sa ulo. oh well ... in time ...

pagmulat ng mata
agad kong naalala
kagabi sinabi mong ayaw mo na
may mali ka bang nakita?
may mali bang nagawa?
bigla na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...

lahat ng gusto mo
tamang sunod ako
nagtataka bakit biglang ayaw mo na
nabigla ko ng lubusan
nang ako iyong aking iwanan
basta na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...

lumingon sandali lang
bago mo tuluyang iwan
nais kong

sumigaw, palabas
at sasabihin sayo ang lahat
tumakbo, palayo
at iiwanan na ang alaala mo

nanginginig, nalulungkot, nahihibang, at tulala
pagod na yata ang ngiti
nauubos din ang tuwa
nag-iisa, umiiyak, nahihirapang huminga
pagod na yata ang ngiti
nauubos din ang tuwa
nanginginig nalulungkot

lumingon sandali lang
bago mo tuluyang iwan
nais kong

sumigaw, palabas
at sasabihin sayo ang lahat
tumakbo, palayo
at iiwanan na ang alaala mo

at kung hindi na babalik
sana sa pag-gising ay wala na ang nadaramang sakit
at kung hindi na babalik
pilit sasabihin na hindi ako nagkamali

sumigaw, palabas
at sasabihin sayo ang lahat
tumakbo, palayo
at iiwanan na ang alaala mo

sumigaw, palabas
at iiwanan na ang alaala mo
tumakbo, palayo
at iiwanan na ang alaala mo

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btw, halos lahat yata ng lyrics dito sa blog ko galing sa kamikazee ... wla tyo magagawa ... mahal ko si manong bangag e. hehe

... =( ...

2006-06-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Ika nga nila eight years in the making
Ngunit hindi pa rin matapos-tapos ang taping
Damdamin ang ating tanging puhunan
Sa motion picture na ating pinagtatampukan
Pinagtatampukan

Minsan muntik makalimutan ang linya
Ngunit buti andyan ka saglit na usap ay sapat na
Agad-agad ay sinalo ng galing ng pag-adlib mo
Muli kong naalala nabitin nating eksena
Parang hindi nawala

Dalangin sana ngayon ay hinog na
Lovestory nating hilaw na nag-umpisa
Pag nagdilim tagpo na di lumipas
Sa akin ang kulay ay di kumukupas

'di mahalaga kung papatok sa takilya
Istorya nating dalawa
'di mahalaga bumenta man sa masa
Istorya nating dalawa
Istorya nating dalawa

Dalangin sana ngayon ay hinog na
Lovestory nating hilaw na nag-umpisa
Pag nagdilim tagpo na di lumipas
Sa akin ang kulay ay di kumukupas

Dalangin sana ngayon ay hinog na
Lovestory nating hilaw na nag-umpisa
Ngunit lahat ng ito'y palagay lang
Sa aking isip ay naglalaro lamang

Ngunit lahat ng ito'y palagay lang
Sa aking isip ay naglalaro lamang

haayyy... my eyes hurt too much from crying. demmit.

nyahahaha

2006-03-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

You scored as Rocker, Mosher. Your A Rocker!

Rocker, Mosher

65%

Skater

45%

Prepy

35%

Goth

35%

Emo

25%

Trendy

20%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

15%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
created with QuizFarm.com

SANA...

2006-02-21T11:04:00.000+08:00

...naligaw ako sa bldg mo nung freshie pa ako
...at nakita mo kataran...tahan ko.. ehehe
...friends na tyo bago ka sumikat
...di ka nalng sikat...hihi
...akin ka nlng...woohoo!! amfut..long
...di ako bangag..toink

makapaglaro na nga lang ng MU..amfufuness

bangag ng buhay ko...woohoo!

2006-02-17T13:29:00.000+08:00

MAHAL KO...woohooo!! ... hehehehehe

araw araw bangag

aw snap. my life's crap

2006-02-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

feel na feel ko to...

"Death Metal"
(Datu's Tribe )

Tayo nyo ang kabaong ko ayoko ng selyado
Bigyan nyo ako ng baso at saksakan nyo ng sigarilyo ang aking bibig
Ayaw ko ng mga humahagulgol ayaw ko ng mga hinihimatay
Gusto ko kayo ay masaya at buhay dapat sa party ko ako lang ang patay

Sa aking puntod
Sa gitna ng hardin
San sariwa ang hangin
Haping-happy ang feeling

Suot ko dapat ang aking shades at yung nuclear smiley tshirt ko
Uupa tayo ng magandang lugar at sa tugtugan ang gusto na banda, Parokya ni Edgar

At ang aking huling hiling madaling araw nyo ako ilibing
Habang ibinibaba ang aking kabaong patugtugin nyo ang praning

Sa aking puntod
Sa gitna ng hardin
San sariwa ang hanging
Haping-happy ang feeling
(2x)

Pagdaan ng ilang taon akong hukayin buksan ang kabaong at tayo'y magpicture taking
Pwede rin tayo mag-picnic di na lang ako kakain
Ilayo nyo 'yang bandehado baka ako humalo sa giniling
Iniwan ko na ang mundo wala na akong problema

Iniwanan ko na ang mundo Wala na akong problema

FAVES

2006-02-05T13:24:00.000+08:00

got this from a friend's blog... hehe... can't do my project sa shop e. kaya blog nlng ako... =(
PLAYING FAVORITES

favorite color:
BLUE!
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favorite food:
chips! aka.. junk foods
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favorite day:
sunday
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favorite month:
beer months, este BER months
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favorite holiday:
Pasko!
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favorite season:
winter... as if meron dito sa pinas
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favorite hobby:
playing games
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favorite sports:
nakaw ala na... dati bball at taek..
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favorite expression:
washuuu, lul! hihi
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favorite getup:
jeans, shirt and flipflops
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favorite drink:
erg, cruiser, TUBIG!
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favorite snack:
chips chips chips
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favorite school:
...UP D! fave ako nito e. fut...long
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favorite actor:
adam sandler
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favorite actress:
nde na sa AJ.
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favorite nba team:
orlando magic nung panaho ni penny
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favorite wrestler:
JAKE THE SNAKE!!!!
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favorite tv show:
will n grace, friends, csi
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favorite author:
stephen king
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favorite book:
basta from stephen king swabe
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favorite movie:
migthy ducks 2!
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favorite director:
tim burton, ace buenaventura... haha
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favorite disney movie:
bug's life, robots 9disney yun dba?)
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favorite foreign language:
umm... english?
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favorite tourist destination:
mars sana
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favorite mythical creature:
unicorns! hihi
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favorite type of music:
yung maingay...
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favorite male singer:
JAY CONTRERAS!!
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favorite female singer:
aia medel at barbie
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favorite band:
incubus
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favorite perfume:
don't wear parfum.. i wear cologne
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favorite car:
audi quattro TT and the batmobile
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favorite shoes:
rubber
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favorite console game:
MAPPY!!!!!!
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favorite pc game:
MU, gunbound, tomb raider
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favorite comic book title:
batman, spawn ... title lang ha
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favorite superhero:
batman!!!!
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favorite superhero team:
umm.. batman's team? hihi... alfred, robin, him and the batmobile
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favorite supervillain:
invader zim
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favorite comicbook artist:
todd mcfarlane

iwasan ang problemang puso... mag clusivol!

2006-02-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

malabo?
simple lang yan e.
pag nag ka gusto ka sa isang tao... di ba sabi para kang may sakit? minsan walang gana kumain, minsan sobrang saya mo, minsan naman parang binagsakan ka ng problema ng sangkatauhan. see? sobrang parang may sakit noh?
kaya eto lang solusyon jan. sabi nga ng commercial... sa panahon ngayon, bawal magkasakit. mag clusivol araw araw. see? take clusivol para hindi "magkasakit"!
eto pa...
di ba pag minsan masama pakiramdam mo, sasabihin lang syo na... magpapawis ka lang mawawala rin yan. parang sa problemang puso... iiyak mo lang... bukas you'd feel much better. pramis! (ahehe, speaking through experience ba? lul. hihi)
pero sabi nga nila, prevention is better than cure.
kaya nga take clusivol everyday e.
di mo ba nabasa yung simula nito?
>_^

**this is a sad day for me, well and happy, gulo noh? i left my 2nd guild, ALIBATA... hindi ko na kasi kaya... i left with a heavy heart (ang korni noh? para naman kasing ala akong 2 pang characters dun, pero shempre, si nuni parin ang main ko), madami rin akong naiwang kaibigan dun at memories, pero i think ESTRANGE will be a nice guild to be. sabi nga ng kanta... time for a kuh ul change...it's time for a cool change. ^_^... am scared.**

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****am just glad that hindi naman parating dense ang mga lalaki. ^_^****

theme song (ng buhay ko)(nye)

2006-01-23T18:29:00.000+08:00

hahaha

yan .. start blogging again! pero papaulanan ko muna kyo ng kanta na feeling ko ay mega bagay describe sa story of my life. malabo sha.. oo kasing labo ng hair ko. basta! yung 2 kanta jan from my beloved jay contreras, yung 1 mula kay rhett miller.

I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart
I'm depressed upstairs
And I'm remembering where
And when, and how, and why
You have to go so far
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
I'm dressed all in white
And I remember the night
You came on to me
And opened up my heart
I was hollow then
'Til you filled me in
Now I'm empty again
I should have never let it start
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
No one else can fix me
Although sometimes my heart tricks me
Into thinking someone else will do
But you're the only one
You are the only one
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life I
'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
So come around
So come around
I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart

Di ko mapigilang ngumiti pag ika'y nakikita
Para kang isang regalong nagbibigay saya
Nagtataka kung anong hiwagang mayron ka
Sana ang nadarama ay di na lumipas pa.
Para bang namamasyal sa ulaptuwing kasama ka
Pati mga problema ko'y biglang limot ko na
Ang oras ay biglang natrapik biglang humihinto
Sulit ang bawat minutong ika'y naririto.
*Kay sarap isipin na naryan kapag ako'y nalulumbay
Basta't kasama ka lahat ng bagayay puno ng kulay
Naririnig ang daloy ng tubig at ihip ng hangin
Sa piling mo'y naglalakbay ako at nananaginip.
Ano bang meron ka at ako'y naakit mo?
Mapungay ang mata kapag ika'y kasama ko
Basta't kapiling ka ako ay ayos na
At sa bawat gitgit iyong makikita na mahal kita.

it never even crossed my mind
that i would fall inlove with you
you were always there behind me
but i never looked that way
friends are friends i looked at them
nothing more and nothing less
familiar things you say and do
seem so strange its not like you
it never even crossed my mind
that i would fall inlove with you
you were always there behind me
but i never looked that way
funny things that made me laugh
is when i think about the past
i never saw it coming but when i turn around and you were there
I learned today
that i need you more each day
grab on to youdont ever let go...
I learned today
that i need you more each day
grab on to youdont ever let go...
I learned today
that i need you more each day
grab on to you
dont ever let go...
I learned today
that i need you more each day
grab on to you
dont ever let go...

^_^ hay madami ako kukwento. pero yan na muna sa ngayon. gagawa pa kasi ako ng project. teehee. next time may malaking picture jan ni jay contreras. para makita nyo kung gano ka bangag ako! bwahahaha. mwahz. :-*

weeee!(ird)

2005-10-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

wee!
1) just bought a smashing pumpkin's acoustic compilation thingy!
love it, love it, love it
now i have a new drive to play the guitar
2) my DL is born!
love it, loveit, love it, love it
now i have another "mouth to feed"
3) perfected puto pao making
munch it, munch it, munch it
another reason why I TOTALLY NEED TO EXERCISE!

now, all i hafta to do is:
1) plan the acoustic night i so dream to produce for my org. (of course featuring my orgmates' band who is NUMBER 1, mind you)
2) level up my dear elf to 180 so she could fly.
3) level up my baby DL so he could...be utterly handsome! hehe
4) find those darn Tomb Raiders 1 & 2 that i can't seem to find, demmit.
5) be ready for my removal exam on the 7th. (haha)
6) finish that freakin programing thingy (which is almost finished btw)
7) CLEAN MY ROOM!
8) organize my files.
9) organize my cds.
10) watch those movies i so want to watch.
11) list the movies i SO want to watch. (haha)
12) clean my bags! (crap, just remembered that one)
... got lotsa stuff to do, hot fudge. so i'll stop listing 'em down and start doing 'em...and not the leveling up thingy first! although i am so tempted to do just that.

hey, can somebody invent a time slowing machine?

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my mom hauled me over to the parlor to have my eyebrows shaped.

now i really look like some weird gay person. my freakin eyebrows are too thin! ugh. see, this is my second time to have my eyebrows shaped. the first was for my junior prom. my mom made the parlor person shape my eyebrows for it looked too manly. i didn't want my eyebrows shaped, but then again i wasn't holding the freakin blade. (ha! i should have brought my dragon spear along! hehe) and that was my second, no, third visit to the saloon my entire life. i like going to the saloon as much as i like going to hospitals. crap. i forgot to go visit my orgmate! the only time i have to go visit him and my mom has to have my kilay shaped.

hey vin, get well soon!

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my 30 mins at the saloon just gave me neck pains. when we got there, there was a girl having her hair blow dried (maybe she got hot oil or something). it took the hairdresser 45 mins to shampoo and cut my mom's hair. when we left, the girl's hair's still being blow dried. man. the cost of beauty. hmm... when they impose VAT, while that cost also go up?

scratch tape

2005-10-14T16:18:00.000+08:00

crap, i've done it again

my curiosity just got me into trouble
me and my friends at that
i should have had let it go
but no
i just have to scratch that mental itch
darn itch...
must not
should not
scratch

curiosity kills the cat
am no cat but am dead

but what can i do?
they're my friends
and i just want to...
want them not to...
but i think i made it worse

must not
should not
scratch

i miss F1

2005-09-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

i can't play ... neither MU nor gunbound ... this freakin PC at work can't run gunbound for some weird reason ... (i am near crying actually) ... then, for some weird reason, i remembered the F1 races ... i love watching F1 way before, when i still have lots of time in my hands ... and when my fave team is second best ... trust me, that Michael Schumacher is a good driver.

anyway, i get to watch one race (i forgot where) on Star Sports ... and i was sooo ... WADDAFUDGE?!?! surprised that my fave driver, JP Montoya, isn't wearing blue and white anymore!

Juan Pablo THEN

instead he's wearing black and gray! (sizzling hot!)

Juan Pablo NOW

what is even more surprising is that Toyota is now above BMW-Williams on the constructors championship. waddaheck happened to BMW? i remembered liking BMW because they were the underdogs during the 2003 races, besides, BMW is one car maker that i like. And that JP Montoya is one hot driver (his wife's hot too!) i tell you.

and then, looking at the races now... WOW, big changes. from 9 constructors, it's now 10! and Michael Schumi getting oust by the young and handsome (haha handsome daw) Fernando Alonso!

that's like...huwaw! Kimi Raikkonen is still second best though. (demm he looks hot in this pic)

also, Renault is now number 1! guess ferrari got too dependent on their aging driver huh? teehee

hmm... see what happens when i don't get to play MU?? or any games for that matter...
demmit

PANIC BUTTON

2005-09-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

huwaw... when it rains, it so does pours

here's the 411...

my guild is diminishing...
my feasib bites ass...
my sister hates me...
i miss playing my BK, ELF and MG, in that order...
i miss going out with my friends...
i miss playing Seth...

and now this...

haayy...
is it just me or is love really in the air?
and i just happen to be wearing a gas mask?
some say i'm too mataray.
others say i'm scaring guys away.
waddaheck

i say,
shouldn't i be taken for what i am?

crap...
maybe i'm too simple for this complicated stuff
i'll just stick to piloting my BK, ELF and MG.

misery loves company

2005-09-18T07:59:00.000+08:00

yep... it's true.

but am not miserable per sé... just sad

pero sabi nga ni obi wan...

online friends come and go
but the friendship stays

sige nga, saang Starwars nya sinabi yan? hehe
the adik family ... you will be missed

MUsings

2005-09-16T17:02:00.000+08:00

I was talking to a newfound in-game friend, and he ... well ... not surprised to find out that I’m a girl. (So not the usual reaction I get from people when they find out that I’m a girl) and he was like... ang dami nang girls na adik sa MU ... 1 ka na dun. And he asked my way is that? ... and it got me thinking ... why is MU becoming really popular with girl gamers? Well, here are my best bets, being a girl myself...(at least, THESE are MY reasons for being hooked into the game)

1. Graphics. -Yup. I liked it better than the other games. It’s more...sophisticated. I think this what appeals to the more "mature" gamers. You’d grow old but not grow up.

2. Play + chat. -C'mon, even guys say that this is one of the things that got them hooked into the game. Killing monsters while talking to people? And not just to people around you but also to people on the other servers! It couldn't get any better than that! It’s like ... YM while playing!

3. Camera. -Yes. The camera being fixed is great. No nauseating whirls of the camera ... especially if you are not a kid of counterstrike. No more confusion on which button controls what. Really comes in handy if you have a mouse wheel and you just love scrolling the freakin' thing.

4. Game format. -It is very easy to control! Just click on the monster...then watch your character beat the shiznit outta it! It is so simple. And you could totally customize the build of your character. An energy knight, a super strong elf ... it's your call. But then of course, I don't recommend those kinds of builds.

These… they are just what instantly shot up my head when I got asked the question… why are you so hooked up? … Oh yeah, I forgot one very important thing … I get hooked because of the people I cross paths with.

at ako'y nabuhay muli

2005-08-14T09:29:00.000+08:00

... pagkat wala ako magawa
naisipang kong gumawa ng tula
ngunit utak ayaw gumana
tila walang sigla
yan ang mapapala
nang pag tunganga
mahirap pla sumulat
pag sa tulog ay salat
lalu na kung ala naman talagang isusulat!

bwahahaha

segway... bakit kya pag nalalaman ng mga tao sa lemuria na ako'y babae, laging tanong nila...maganda ka ba? HINDE. HINDE PO AKO MAGANDA. MUKA PO AKONG KAHOY NA BINILAD SA ARAW AT KINALIMUTAN NA NG PANAHON. kaso mashadong malalim. kaya sabi ko nlng muka akong lalake, ng tumahimik.

baket kailangang maging maganda? eh hindi naman nila malalaman kung totoo sabihin ko mang OO o HINDI, para namang kikitain ko sila noh?? hmm...siguro dapat may cam yung mobius, tapos yung muka nung player yung lumulutang dun sa character nya. hehe.. macho ko naman nun... lalo akong pagkakamalang tibo!

contrary to other people's belief...namely lester the rat...NDE PO AKO TIBO!! hindi po porke ako ay mahilig mag maong pants, mag tshirt, mangulit, magbabad sa arcades at sa comp shops, magtingin ng kotse, at kung anu ano pang nde ginagawa ng mga girlalu, ibig sabihin tibo na ko. TAPOS PAG NAKA PANG GIRL AKO HIHIRIT KYO NG...BAT BABAE KA NGAYON?? kundi nga naman makapatay ka ng nilalang...hmp.

my staple jeans and tshirt get up is just a tactic. pag lagi ako nakapang girl, edi nde na magugulat yung mga tao pag nag palda ako! or nag girly top ako! magiging mundane na ang girly get up, wala na excitement sa kung anong suot ni ako, dava? hehe besides, malalaman nila na kikay pla ako. nyaha ... wala na ang element of surprise! hihi

HUWAW!! wala talaga ako masulat!! nyaha... sige, gawa muna ako artik sa insider... baka maka bless. nyaha

--=HzL 101=--

2005-07-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

1. girl ako
2. wish i could get my tummy and thigh chiseled.
3. i think a lot...as in A LOT.
4. i play games a lot. i put games into all aspects of my life.
5. life is a game meant to be played...the right way.
6. adik ako sa kotse, musika, gitara at video games...pati na rin sa lollipops at nerds.
7. mahilig ako magdesign ng tatoo (kahit fangit)...pero i'm scared of needles.
8. gusto ko maging isang ROCKSTAR!
9. gusto ko magkaroon ng plantation ng marijuana...at maging supplier nito sa legal nations. hehe
10. dati, gusto kong ipa-dreds ang hair ko...buti nakilala ko si yug. hihi
11. gusto ko na mag skirt lagi, if not for my killer thighs...killer whale.
12. gusto ko mag-costume...ng slutty nurse! bwahahahahahahaha
13. marunong ako mag drawing dati...i miss that.
14. kahit gaano ako ka-boyish, mahilig ako mag gant ... crochet ... at mag cross-stitch.
15. i tried plucking my eyebrows once...ouch!
16. gusto maging isang jeepney driver for one whole summer.
17. i like destroying things when i'm utterly mad.
18. ...pero i'd rather hurt myself than hurt someone else.
19. ...pero i normally hit people...playful jab lang naman e...pero they say malakas daw ako manghampas.
20. miss ko na ang mag-bilyar.
21. i hate guys na feelingero at feeling macho.
22. i hate girls na nagpapa-weak effect...papa-awa effect pla. WE ARE NOT THE WEAKER SEX! =P
23. i don't like guys na mas girl pa saken...IN ALL ASPECTS.
24. cheesecake is one of my krytonites. (ie, weakness ko po)
25. i'm not into flowery stuff...but i love dark blue roses.
26. i envy people who found what they're looking for.
27. mababaw kaligayahan ko.
28. i flirt intentionally...pero unintentional most of the time.
29. but i don't play people's feelings! ayoko ma-karma.
30. gusto ko maging DJ sa radyo nung bata ako...tas pilot ng fighter plane (parang si John Stockthon)...tas astronaut...tas nagdedesign ng kotse/mekaniko ng kotse...tas gitarista ng isang sikat/malupit na band...kahit manager nalang...all of which walang connection sa course ko.
31. sabi ng utol ko...bat di ka nalang nag Computer Engg?

sabi ko sa kanya...bat di ka nag Arki o Fine Arts? (kami'y biktima ng aming ina)
32. adik ako sa kulay BLUE. nde obvious noh? ^_^
33. pagwala ako magawa, i think about nuni and where to put my stat points.
34. mahilig ako mang-trip ng mga newbie sa MU.
35. rule ko sa MU: ang makulet...DEDZ. x-p
36. i have a huge batman poster sa dingding ng kwarto...to watch over me. hehe
37. spiderman, superman o batman? BATMAN!!! sya lang ang 100% macho. hehe
38. si SETH ang superfriend ko...andyan sya pag ako'y malungkot, masaya, walang magawa, maraming dapat gawin, in love, out of love...at di nya ako iniiwan kahit nde ko sya pinapansin paminsan.
39. marami ako nunal sa katawan...frustrated meztiza.
40. nagpapaputi ako using white henna. wahahahahaha...
41. my mom used to give me cosmetics...a lot. i hate it.
42. malakas kiliti ko. hihi
43. i could spend 10 hours straight in front of the PC.
44. i love my melon smell...courtesy of Penshoppe, Savannah.
45. i have a teddy bear inside my closet...wearing my tiarra
46. katabi ng teddy bear yung 1L ABSOLUT VODKA BOTTLE na trophy ko from kuya Gino!
47. gitara si SETH.

48. i am usually a victim of impulse buying.
49. mahilig ako magtry out ng clothes na pakikay sa stores.
50. nde makapaniwala mommy ko nung bumili ako ng skirt. (si jawy rin daw nde makapaniwala)
51. mahilig ako mang gago sa chatrooms pag walang magawa...i will tagalize in an international chatroom.
52. mahilig din ako maggawa ng model airplanes and aircraft carriers...kaso wala na ako lalagyan ng finished products.
53. i wear pink or yellow shirts when i go to rock concerts full of "punk daw sila" people... just to irritate them..POSER AKO!! hehe
54. takot ako ipis. especially flying ipis.
55. nakikipag wrestling ako sa utol ko.
56. i like watching gory films and psycho stuff. and movies with cool cars in them. and movies with waaay cool graphics. and comedies...the best!
57. muka akong teacher pag nag glasses ako...kaya kahit ayaw ng elders ko, nag contacts ako!
58. grade 4 ako natuto mag mura.

59. ako pinaka tahimik sa class nung grade 4 ako.
60. ako prez ng class ko nung 6th grade. ako din pasimuno ng pag skip ng class...we hate music class.
61. nde ako nag home econ nung junior high ko, i took up drafting with the boys. pro nung nag home econ ako nung senior year, malupit daw ako magluto!
62. 1st choice ko talaga Photography o Culinary Arts na course...ayaw nanay ko.
63. pinapagshift ako sa nursing ng mom ko nung 4th year ko...yoko nga.
64. i buy selecta double chuva na double dutch 'n chocolate... i leave the chocolate part untouched. 65. i haven't been inside a derma clinic nor had a facial...my brother however have a membership sa Flawless.
66. i go to arcades all by myself.
67. miss ko na si Hamster my smart hamster...may sunflower seeds parin ako for her/him/it.
68. gusto ko gumala sa manila zoo.
69. ginawa kong coloring book yung smut funny comic book na nakita ko sa baul ng tatay ko...sana nde nya hanapin.
70. i like kikay earrings. but i don't like wearing huge loop earrings.
71. nde ako madali magalit, pero pag nagalit ako...lumayas ka sa harap ko!
72. i love NY Bagels' Pesto Bagel and French Baker's Pesto-Garlic Sticks.

73. i could eat Goldilocks' Sans Rival every freakin day...but in two weeks intervals. hehe
74. FPJ tawag saken nung 6th grade.
75. Steve naman nung 8th grade.
76. muka akong driftwood sa grad pic ko. actually, muka akong driftwood sa LAHAT ng pix ko.
77. i wanna run a high class escort service company where my clientele is composed of celebrities and politicians. hehe.
78. i turned my sister into a MU adik!

79. i usually attend class just because of the attendance.
80. i stopped growing up when i hit 17...now i'm just growing old.
81. when i entered highschool, i was 5'4"...now i'm 5'4.5"...pro most people think i'm taller than that.
82. i like expressive eyes...they're the very first things i look at in a guy...ano kaya yung next? hehe
83. shaved heads - another kryptonite that'd kill me.

84. i learned to drive in 1 day...but i stopped driving the very next week, so now i'm a commuter. (which rocks at times...)
85. when i was in elem and highschool, i read our encyclopedias for fun.
86. i used to stay up all night reading THE GIANT BOOK OF FACTS.
87. now i stay up all night playing MU!
88. i like pushing myslef to the limit.
89. i have an autogrpahed *Nsync's No Strings Attached album.
90. adik ako sa *Nsync at sa Incubus.
91. i buy teenybopper magazines because of Vin Diesel, *Nsync, Paul Walker and Incubus.
92. i miss Anfernee Hardaway.
93. i used to buy NBA cards just because of Penny...nung nasa Magic pa sya with Shaq.
94. i love smelling good...kaya kahit bago matulog nagpapabango ako...pati na rin pag gising sa umaga.
95. i also put liberal amount of lip balm before i sleep and before i brush my teeth in the morning.
96. i like slapshock dahil kay lee nadela.
97. i want to have a killer for hire/ espionage agency...kami ng sister ko ang agents.
98. i love dancing!
99. i put powdered milk in almost anything i eat. lucky me beef, saging, picadillo, nilagang piggy...
100. i wish i could wear japanese fashion here in the streets of manila.

101. guys with ponytails 'n goatees (ie, clean looking, rockstar looking guys) - kryptonite.

...shop antics...

2005-07-03T13:51:00.000+08:00

customer na tanga
...miss, bat ayaw gumalaw ng mouse? (sabay ginagalaw yung camera)**yan po epekto ng chat**
...miss, bat ayaw mabukas pinto nyo? (pushing the door. yung kamay nya nasa tapat ng sign na PULL)
...(kumakatok) bat ayaw bumukas? (may sign naman na PUSH sa labas. pano hinahatak yung door...)
...miss, what time kyo mag sasara? (may sign naman na WE ARE OPEN 24 HOURS)
...miss, pde pa print? (tapos nakatayo sa may printer) **hindi, hindi pde...talon ka muna...hehe**
...miss, may xerox kyo? (habang nakatayo sa tapat ng photocopy machine) **wla po kami xerox, sharp lang**
...miss, pde mag pa develop ng picture? (nakapost one click INTERNET) **magkaiba po ang COMPUTER SHOP at PHOTOSHOP**
...miss, pde magkipagkilala? **HINDE!**

what goes on?

2005-07-03T09:47:00.000+08:00

inside the mind of ...
... san ko kaya lalagay stat points ko? ... hmm...
... kumag na un ah! sayang 2C ko ...
... hmm... san kaya ako mamaya ... LT o Dungeon ... teka, weekend pla ngayon
... mag DP ba ako o GD nlng? .. hmm ... kano kaya +7+12 nun ...
... nood ba ako concert sa friday? ... sayang sa exp ...
... cute kaya si GM *insert name here*? ...
... hafta lvl up...hafta lvl up...hafta lvl up...
... sino kya yung makulit na elf kagabi? ... takte...
... waa! wala na pla ako load! kelangan pabili na ke dadi...*aloud* classmate, pde pa text?

this one's dedicated to my guildmates and online friends

unrequited love

2005-06-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

i was talking online to a friend the other day...natawa ako dun sa usapan namin...ang weird kasi...... unrequited love

yun yung term na lagi nya nisasabi to describe what, he thinks, i have. which kinda got me thinking. do i love because i know that the person i am giving my love to will love me back?...hmm...the Lord gave up His only Son even though He knew that His love would not be returned by the people He's trying to save. (tama ba?)

huwaw! seriousness! nde ko kinaya. on the lighter side, parang ganito yan e. pag may natural calamity na dumaan, madami ang volunteers sa pagtulong sa mga nasakuna. they help the victims kahit alam nilang nde sila masusuklian ng mga ito.
parang ganun din sa pagmamahal...hindi ka naman nagmamahal dahil alam mong maibabalik yung pagmamahal na yun ng taong minamahal mo. magmamahal ka dahil...walalang...mahal mo e. pero mas masaya nga lang kung maibabalik nya dva?

kaya kung ako sa inyo...MAGTARAY NLANG KAYO!
teehee...biro lang. =)

nothing

2005-05-29T09:14:00.000+08:00

staring at the ceiling
thinking things through
no good feelings to be felt
no good things to do
no good people to talk to
not a sign from you
i have lost me
and it's hard to see
dunno what lies ahead
might be better off dead
my heart is aching
but my body's numb
crushed like an ant
under a giant's thumb
how do you do it?
make me feel like i do?

-sensya na...alang magawa e..-

2005-05-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

Mga nadampot ko kay MONGGY ...hehe

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 100%

Gluttony: 80%

Sloth: 80%

Wrath: 80%

Greed: 40%

Pride: 40%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 60%

You will die in a duel.

How Sinful Are You?

innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it that wayWhat Sign of Affection Are You?
Quizilla

I W W

2005-05-23T07:47:00.000+08:00

just read my previous blogs ...
wahahaha! korni ko pla talaga...
alam kong korni ako
pero nde ko na realize na
SOBRANG KORNI KO PLA!!
takteng buhay to...
hihi
haven't found my muse again
nakawala na ata ung dati
kaya nde nako masyado nakakasulat
hmm...
pde ring busy ako
with nuni...
hehe
di bale
lapit na ulit pasukan
and when skul starts
hyper mode ulit si utak
..sana lang nga
hehe

sing-a-song

2005-04-23T12:51:00.000+08:00

from Bridget Jones' Dairy ... sigh

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

hy(p)ernate mode ... hehe

2005-04-20T06:50:00.000+08:00

my mind's currently filled with A LOT of stuff ... so is my sked.

maybe some other day i'll find time to write something worth reading ...

as per now ...

hypernate mode activate
hypernate = hibernate + hyper hazel

ikaw ba wala?

2005-04-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

bat ang weird mo?
kala ko ako lang weird, sabi mo eh
pero bakit ganun?
sinabi mo sa kin may nadarama sila
ikaw ba...wala?
nakakalungkot namang isiping ganun
may magagawa ba ko?
wala, parati namang wala
naiisip mo kya ako?
malamang hindi
sumasabit kya ako sa guni guni mo?
sana kahit minsan
alam mo ba ang nadarama ko?
sana ...

hay ... ang buhay ko
puno ng sana
puro sana nalang
sana ganito
sana ganyan
sana ganun
sana ...
may nadarama ka
para sakin

at sana totoo ka sakin
hindi guni guni ko lang ang lahat

sana hindi nalang matapos ang lahat
sana akin ka nalang.

chocolates ... dang

2005-04-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

hay ... my life's like chocolate ...
the dark ones that i hate. it soo bittersweet!
i wonder, when will my life become as sweet and tasty as white chocolate?

i think i'm going back to the bad place
i shouldn't ... but i can't help it

is it better off like this?

i really dunno ... the answers to life's mysteries are as plenty as salt in an ant's hill

***You ain't got to buy nothing
It's not what I want
Baby it's You
We don't have to go nowhere
Its not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not for what you got
I know you got a lot
No matter what you do
You always gettin Hot
It's You,
It's You
Baby all I want is You Yeah***
... hehe

CROSSROADS

2005-03-30T09:42:00.000+08:00

hindi yung movie ni britney ...

trudging down the street of life...
i suddenly found myself in a yield ...
should i take the left ...
or the other left?
or maybe i'll just stay on this spot
wait for a stranger to pass me by
then tag along to whichever way he'd go

but that's stupid

but where should i go?

i got no one to turn to
i got nowhere run

so maybe i'll be better off
standing here

ang hirap talaga ng vacation mode na ang utak ... inaasahan ka pa gumawa ng project ... hay

coincidence ... the sequel

2005-03-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

i just hafta write this down ... sobrang weird kasi na coincidence ... just found the other piece of my favorite pair of earrings ... the blue dolphin thingy ... the same day i "re found" (yeah, there's no such word, but it gets the thought across) my "twin soul" ... haha ... soo weird ... yeah, it kinda sucks being in the middle, but if it's the one that works ... why the heck not stay there?? ... 'cause life sucks and we all hafta deal with it.

one more thing ...

may nabasa ako na blog tungkol sa pagiging weird ng tao ... ganun talaga ...
weird kasi hindi mo maintindihan ...
weird kasi para sa 'yo hindi ito normal ...
weird kasi kakaiba ...
kaya ang mundo ay weird ...
ang tao ay weird ...
siya ay weird ...
ikaw ay weird ...
lahat ay weird ...
ako ay hinde ... kyo lang weird. hehe

ay ... may tumawag na nga pala sa akin na weird ako ...

teka, pano kung anmg weird para syo ay normal na? werid pa rin ba yun??

coincidence

2005-03-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

bago ako matulog kagabi ... nanood muna ako ng FRIENDS ... ang galing ng episode ... tinamaan ako ... nang malupit ... yun yung matapos mali ang pangalan na nasbi ni Ross nung kinasal sya kay Emily ... instead of "i Ross do take Emily.." he said Rachel ... tapos ang proposal ni Emily sa kanya to take him back is to never see Rachel again ... which is hard for both of them kasi they're friends ... pero Ross decided to give in 'cause he wants his marriage to work out ... tapos hindi ko na kinaya ... pinatay ko na yung TV ... nagisip sandali ... nakipag talastasan sa MayKapal ... at natulog ng isang napaka bagabag na tulog ...

nag simula nga pala ang lahat ng minsang pag gising ko, ang kabiyak ng paborito kong hikaw ay wala na ... parehong araw ng maramdaman ko ang lamig ng paligid ... weird eh ... kasi parang nung isang araw lang mainit ... sobra ... tapos biglang lumamig ... summer naman ...

mahirap pala.

hanggang dito ... serbi

2005-03-12T15:11:00.000+08:00

What is the total amount of music in your PC? mga 2Gb ... nde pa kasama yung mga mp3s sa CDs ko ... teehee

The last CD i bought: urban dub's influence

The last song you listened to before this message? yung kinakanta ko kanina sa tambayan ... LIHIM ng Cambio

5 songs you listen to a lot and mean a lot to you:
lihim ng cambio
valentine ng shades apart
fall to pieces ng saliva
new tatoo ng urban dub
pardon me ng incubus

Who are the people you're going to pass this on to:
1. si vin
2. si tops
3. si je

like a bad star ... i'm falling faster down ...

2005-03-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

--== The best thing about loving and being hurt is that you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire, and so will love be perfected in pain ==--

you make me complete ... ly miserable

2005-03-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

YUN LANG ...
mula sa kanta ng LIT ...

you make me come
you make me complete
you make me completely miserable

NUMB

2005-03-08T06:28:00.000+08:00

i have reached NUMB status ... it's kinda weird though ... just found out yesterday ... for some reason ... the feeling is weird ... but i kinda expected it.
Ever watched Hey Arnold! ... ? It's the dude with the football head. Anyway, this girl, Helga, is totally in love with Arnold ... but i am NO Helga ... she's in love with Arnold but she keeps making fun of him everytime they see each other. Then one day, Helga said to herself that she'd stop loving Arnold ... and so she became this "lifeless", boring person. so she decided to be in love with Arnold again ... and return to her old sarcastic self. ... wait, what's my point? hmm ... oh yeah ... take away passion in you, you take away the life in you.

moral of the story: DON'T TAKE PASSION AWAY, LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO BE MISERABLE ALL THE TIME...TAKE TIME TO SMELL THE COFFEE.

SILA YAN

Wide Awake

2005-03-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

i'm awake ... i think i have fallen asleep and someone else drove my ship ... good thing someone else splashed cold water on to my face ... woke me up just in time to steer clear away from the feakin' iceberg that sunk the Titanic ... made me wonder ... and made my head clear ... what the fudge was i thinking! ... snoozing off on duty ... bad hzl ...

Cliff Hanger ... 2

2005-03-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

WARNING:corny pa rin 'to

NAMP ... mukang napatalon na ata ako ... pero napakapit muli sa kahuli huli hang segundo ... natakot ako eh. alam kong walang sasapo sakin. sa dulo ng banging ito ... lahat ng tao ... may hawak ... at hindi nila kayang bitiwan ang hawak nila para sapuhin ako. tama ang isa kong kaibigan ... hindi kaya ng isang kamay ang bigat ko. haha ... mag reduce muna kaya ako ... tsaka ako tumalon ... haha .. asa pa. sana hindi nalang naging kaaya aya at kahuma humaling ang mga bagay na nakikita ko sa baba ... sana hindi unti unting gumuguho ang lupang kinatatayuan ko ... parang nauubos na ang oras ko ... hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. mahirap malito sa ganitong sitwasyon ... siguradong AKO lang naman ang masasaktan ...

ganito ba talaga ... nagiging corny na akong sobra ... ayoko na ... hindi ko na kaya ... masakit na ang braso ko ... mahirap umahon ...

Cliff Hanger

2005-03-03T07:11:00.000+08:00

WARNING: CORNY 'TO

I find myself standing at the edge of a very high cliff ... then it got me thinking ... two options lay before me ... should I jump and experience the thrill of free fall ... feel the adrenalin pumped into my veins ... and deal with broken bones later? ... or should i just stand there ... watch the world below ... and stop myself before i get hurt? ...

yeah, maybe i'll just eat ice cream and corn chips

houses ... cars ... and boys ... haha

2005-03-02T07:40:00.000+08:00

papunta kami nila may sa vinzon's ... bigla ko naisip ang komentaryo ni hanna sa aking naunang isinulat ... tungkol sa bahay ... dapat daw kotse nalang ... tutal mahilig ako sa kotse ... napagisip ko ... hmm ... pag ang kotse may ari na ... pwede pa ring maagaw ... yun nga lang carnapper labas mo nun ... pwede madala ... fine, hindi nabibitbit yung kotse para madala ... pwedeng mapaandar yung nacarnap na kotse kung san man gusto dalin ng carnapper ... pero ang bahay na mayroon nang may ari ... hindi na pwedeng agawin mula sa may ari ... pwera nalang kung i-under seige mo yung bahay ... pero huli ka agad dun ... kasi hindi ka makakaalis ... dun ka lang sa bahay ... mako-corner ka ... at hindi susunod ang bahay san mo man ito gusto dalin ... di tulad ng kotse ... pero merong ganun ... may mga bahay ... may mga kotse ...

ang kulit!!!

2005-03-01T00:14:00.000+08:00

ang buhay ... parang life ... ubod ng ... pero bakit ganun? di ba dapat masaya ako? ... kasi ... kaso ... labo ... mahirap talaga ... lalo na pag ang bahay na gusto mong bilhin ... meron nang may ari ... hindi ka na pwedeng pumasok at tumira sa loob ... hindi mo na pwedeng hawakan ang susi ng pinto ... hanggang labas ka nalang ... hanggang tingin ka nalang ... sayang ... sayang at hindi ako nagawi sa parte na iyon ng mundo at nakita agad ang bahay na iyon ... sayang at may nag mamay ari na ng magandang bahay na kinahulugan ng puso mo ... di bale ... lakad lakad nalang muna uli ... baka meron pang iba dyan ... sanay naman akong walang tirahan eh ... wow pare heavy ... nde ko kinaya to ah ... lalim! ... parang balon

Y? --- tula para sa inyo ...

2005-02-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

Y?

why do you make me laugh?
why is my life tough?
why do i fall so fast?
why is my sadness vast?
why do you make my day?
why can't i make you stay?
why can't i be with you?
why can't you feel the way i do?
why are there so many questions?
why are there hesitations?
why are answers hard to find?
why are you still on my mind?

ramblings ... 1

2005-02-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

yeah! sabado ngayon ... dapat gumagawa ako ng 151 paper ... o di kaya'y ng 181 paper namin ... o kaya ay nag aaral para sa exam sa lunes ... putcha ... happy? valentine's? ... nyaha. bat kasi kelangan mag ka february ... nde ba pde skip nalang yun? hehe...sorry sa mga birthday ay feb. syet. pag dating nanaman ng bahay ... mag gigitara nanaman ... nakakasawa nang mag aral. hindi ba pwede mag gitara nalang at mag sulat habang buhay? ... nde rin. nde nman ako henyo na babayaran para sa mga sinusulat ko...hmm...gawa kaya ako ng "autobiography"? ... kaso hindi naman exciting buhay ko e. kahit ako aantukin sa babasahin ko sa sobrang boring ng buhay ko. ano kaya magawa? ayoko nang mag work sampling ... NAKAKAWALANG GANA! bakit ba kasi konektado ang puso at ang utak. pag tinamad yung isa ... tatamarin na rin yung isa. tapos kung buong katawan ... wala na. hmm ... tama nga siguro yung sabi ng isa kong orgmate ... mas maganda siguro kung manhid nalang. bakit? ba malay. basta. nde ko alam. ayan. nahulog na ang tren.

Pink Roses

2005-02-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

You like to carry my heart in a bag that's broken.
You're asking when do I stop? When the bottle's empty.
Blacker than my father's soul. Drunk enough to raise us all.
Pink (x2)
Roses (x2)
Nomad, Drowning Rat.
Black, black, so black you cant even grasp the fact.
Blacker than a begger's soul.
Rich enough to raise us all.
Lead with your need as god decends
Pink (x2)
Roses (x2)
Cold to the ground, what gets me this down?
The smell of magnesium, the smile of a clown.
I wanna drink you.
Scare you.
F*** you and Film you
Pink (x2)
Roses (x2)
can't help but feel like this group's music ... anyone who knows this band?
well ... i don't wanna do the thing after "scaring you" though
not yet ... hehehe